TIME TO MOVING OUT OF MY MOTHER'S HOUSE??

I'm 25 years OLD now. Should I move out of my Mom's house?
There is this very famous cliché that says that the youngest daughter (me) has to take care of the mother until she (the daughter) marries, most importantly when the Mother has no longer a husband.

The 21's sounds perfect for leaving the nest, some girls do it earlier in their lives but sometimes when you are really comfortable living with your parents you start to think that at the 24's you are still young enough to let your mommy do your laundry, after all your mother do it with pleasure :) but when you turn 25! oh my holy wow! suddenly you realize your are almost 30 and start to think about how you can still let your little brother sleep with you because you are afraid of dark -nothings that happens to me of course- 25 is almost 30 if you round it up!!o_o

So I have decided to move out :) and I am so excited about this new chapter of my life. This is not happening any soon yet because I am in the middle of my MBA and I have not saved enough money for my new car and I am planning moving to another city so I need to figure out a few things before give this big step. Sorry mother, your little rocker is leaving for good :)

I will move to a big city near and also I am planning to enter to the school again and change my career, it will be an impossible adventure, very dangerous and full of rock and roll. I imagine myself sleeping in a super small room with nothing but my hard rock boots and my guitar -that I do not have yet- and stay semi alive eating every two days ha ha I can't wait. But I know it won't happen exactly that way, I have family where I am planning to live, specially an uncle that I love that will give me a place to stay, but I'm totally buying that guitar \m/

And what are you ready for?

Divine Justice.

I have been thinking in God very much lately. Six thousands of millions of people in the world and, is He really taking care of me? How can He notice me? I am so insignificant, so small, so weak. Thoughts like these pushed me to pray and cry and pray. Then I had the sudden necessity to let go feelings that were suffocating me slowly inside.

I have detected some areas of my life I can do a huge improvement and I am ready to do a lot of changes. First of all I went with the bishop of my church and I confessed everything I have been doing wrong in the last couple of years. It was really hard, I was very embarrassed, but when I was finally out of that office a huge weight disappeared from my body. It was a blessing.

In order to change you first need to recognize that you did something wrong and you have to feel deeply sorry about it, then you have to confess -until here I am doing fine-. Next step is restitution or trying to fix the things you have done wrong and apologize people you hurt -I am working on this step-. And finally you have to take the important decision to commit to never do the same mistakes again.

It may sound easy but Gosh! it is really really hard.

I have been in this process a little while and I am feeling alone and sad, and this is normal, it suppose you have to feel this way. This horrible feeling is what you get for not doing things right, its the price you have to pay, its the way you will learn and remember that everything has consequences. This is called Justice.

When I am feeling very desperate I start to think how patience is God with us. He waits and waits very patiently for us to do the things right, and when we finally do we want immediate blessings, like if we deserve that our lives were fixed in just one day. That is not how this works.

So relax, take a deep breath every time you need, pray a lot, be patience, be good, work hard, love everyone, be kind, and it may seem nothing is changing now but it will, once you change inside everything will change outside, for good and it will be magnificent. ♥

Emily Hern

I FEEL UGLY!

It is incredible the power a human being can have on someone. One person can make us smile, cry, even fly and sometimes -like me the last couple of days- someone can make us feel ugly.

Who is that ugly person starring at me in the mirror? oh! I am.

You are watching you, the same person that you have always been, but you do not recognize yourself anymore.

When that bags below my eyes appeared? Are these wrinkles? Oh my nose is too big. My hair is too dry. My skin is too greasy. My arms are huge. My teeth are not white enough. I look tired.

That person left you with nothing. No hope. No love. No self esteem. All is just empty.

And that is the signal when you know you don't love you anymore... and also there is no better time to start doing it again.

The thing we need to understand is that you are the only one that can grant that power to other people. That is the power to control you. How we feel everyday is the gasoline of our achievements. You have to learn to do productive things even though you are feeling totally destroyed inside. The days when we feel like crap will always exist. You need to learn how to make them work.

Be strong. Weakness will carry you to nowhere very fast.